I may have mentioned this before but before my spiritual journey I was a hoarder in that I had a lot of stuff that I just held on to really for no reason other than just in case moments. It was manageable at first and then it was a bit too much and over whelming.
I guess the reason why I had so much and at least in my mind if I ran out of something I would be upset if I needed it so I started a habit of buying the items just in case.
I held on to a lot of things that would hold a memory it wasn't so dear I could part from it but I had memories with it.
After awhile it was out of boredom that I would purchase things or I had plans to work on something and needed more...
There is no logic to this madness.
When you lose items that are hard to let go of it's a bit upsetting and devastating in a way. They are and will be replaced at some point. But then you are given the opportunity to let Go of these items on your own and it gives you a sense of relief.
Not at first but eventually you get a sense of relief.
At first it's upsetting to HAVE to let Go but eventually you come to the point that they are just STUFF... Depending on your attachment level it will take a little longer to get past the upset part.
Nearly 3 years on my spiritual journey and even though I collected blankets and other items I've had to let Go of I NEED these items to survive to having Faith that Father will take care of my needs as He has been this entire time.
Although I am torn at this point because I can let Go of these items but I am thinking it may take longer to replace them...
Ofcourse thoughts like this are from the enemy because so long as I RELY on Father He will provide what I need.
I think that we often use the stuff as an excuse to hold on to them and people who can provide these items again and then we end up relying on people and things.
However that isn't to say Father doesn't use people to provide the things you need because He most certainly does but you will know it's just for those things you need at that time...
The way the world is changing before our eyes in plain sight is scary and relying on Father in that we can't see Him is scary as well because we've been conditioned to believe in some cases we have to RELY on ourselves instead of Father.
I think that's where the line is super fine...
I believe we are to RELY ON Him (FATHER) to guide us in the spirit to know what to do next. I believe this is the correct way of doing things but if you don't follow the spirit it's hard to differentiate between Father's will and your will.
So you have to allow yourself to be led in the spirit and not rely on yourself to get what you need or where to go.
We are human beings and we tend to make mistakes if we are not careful to think it through with spiritual backing.
As for me I am not perfect and I do get stressed out when I have too much stuff but still I don't like or want to leave things.
It's hard but it is slowly very slowly getting easier to let Go and trusting in faith as small as a mustard seed that He will provide.
It's definitely a work in progress and because of the things going on right now in the world it just feels like what's the point to holding on to stuff...
Where your treasure is there too is your heart...
This is WHY Yahushua told the young rich man to sell everything he had and follow Him and that he will have treasure in Shamayim...
As humans it's hard to believe in but the truth is the physical STUFF will not save you from anything...
Okay that's all for now
Ruth4Yah
Signing Off
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